Waiting on Sunday

It is not often that I am prone to dread something, but I am seriously not into this upcoming trip to Ohio. Everyone else is excited, so guess it makes up for me not being. On Sunday, May 22, 2011, my mom and I will be embarking on a trip to Ohio to meet with a team from TouchBionics to begin working on my own ProDigits myoelectric prosthetic. If you'd asked me 2-3 months ago, I was ecstatic. Now...not so much. Getting things approved and the bugs worked out of my cable prosthetic put a damper on my excitement. My slipping grades from the stress, even more so. So, here we are. A few days from leaving and I'm not even packed.

To make things more eventful, I'm going to be getting a call to discuss my expectations for this trip. Problem: I don't have any. I'm going with the intent that everything is going to work out and I can have this done and over with. I'll be able to finally move forward and escape all this maybe. I'm also being asked to share my story, funny thing is, I do not have much of one to tell. And not entirely ready to. I'm okay with them doing photos to show other people, but not so much a focus on me. I guess I do not like knowing what to expect. In a way, I just want to get over this hurdle and get on with life. Not have to relive it over and over again, always in a circle. It get's old, and I'm just now coming on my one-year mark. Got a long way to go.

So I guess I'll just hang tight and keep an open mind, and try to remember to let the glory be to God, even though I want to curl up and hide. Everything happens for a reason, so there's some point to this. Just hoping it's not to make a fool of myself. I'll be keeping this updated, not often, but often enough.

And we take another step...